I broke up with him

Because I was too selfish...

My sisters didn't believe me.

I and my boyfriend were so close, like cat & rat…

So close that when I finally broke the news of my breakup, they didn't believe me.

Why would I break a long-standing relationship of six years?

What went wrong?

Well, my lady, you see…

I took that decision for my own personal gain.

Actually, for both of us, even though he doesn't know that yet.

You see, I was lost…

Lost in a world of fantasy, struggling to be who I wasn't, trying very hard to fit in and gradually losing my sanity.

You see, I looked “ok” on the outside, but on the inside, I was:

Dealing with low self esteem, dealing with low self-confidence, losing my self-worth and I began to completely depend on him.

This wasn't what I wanted for myself. This wasn't the future I dreamt for myself. Far from it!

So, my lady, I had to make a decision.

I had to FIND MYSELF.

It wasn't his fault that I was that way…

But I had to take that break to rediscover myself, to find myself, to develop myself and most importantly to take back control of my life and destiny.

I took a break from our relationship… more like I broke up with who I was, to become who I am, now.

Did he understand why I broke up with him?

Not yet. He wouldn't understand if I told him.

Heck! I didn't even understand what I was doing back then. All I knew was that I needed a break from everything and everyone.

I just wanted to spend some time alone with myself. That wasn't too much to ask 😅

…And it has been a wonderful journey of self-discovery for me.

Taking a break from our relationship and breaking up with my past is one of the best decision I've ever made in my life.

So, my lady,

I learnt a lot from that experience.

And I hope that by reading this letter, you'll learn something valuable too.

Thank you ❣️

Don't forget,

YOU can be MORE.

P.S: One of my queens asked me to write a letter on how to handle emotions especially when it comes to the opposite gender.

This suggestion reminded me of my own experience with the other gender and I decided to share them with you.

I hope you enjoyed today's letter. Leave a reply for me, will you?

I'd love to read from you.

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